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Date : Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Time : 4:54 AM Title : I went to sch with a good smile
haha all was well but i still thinking of him but it seems the love for him is still no use loving someone that doesnt noe that u like him is damn sad and i juz think of him even when i was running for rev-up haizz my mind is flooded by two things one is love and the other one is sjab and church cos i did not spend much time with my church friends sry hunny pie and sweetheart okay Shirley juz stay with god no matter how journey is going to turned out for u cos I and Adeline will support u LOL will pray for you jiayous will pray for u I went to sheng siong with siti to calculate what we need to buy haha shall not tell more HOw am i supposed to do when he isnt around me I thought i saw him in sch but it seems i have been dreaming abt him I almost slept in maths class sry Mdm Puvan I slept at class haizz I dreamt scary thoughts abt him that he was gone from my life I miss u like hell even at sch i became strong because of u what if u faded from me I guess i am too foolish to love you so deep that i can sacrifice everything what has happen to me? even my friends said i became so gentle le what did u change? finally understand why i cried these days it is because i am not comfortable without you my dearest I love you too much that i hurt my heart the past between me and SC it is juz a matter of crush but now i finally decide to stick to you so dunt let me go I really like you so much dun leave me le loving u is the only thing i should do so juz dun be sad will be praying for you lalalala...
Date : Monday, March 30, 2009
Time : 6:23 AM Title : MY HEART SUFFERS ALONG WITH YOU
Did u notice it everyday? the moment I look u in ur eyes I juz miss u even when u are just around me what shall I do without the love that I require? I am missing you like freaking days
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Time : 5:30 AM Title : today was wonderful
totally cos today i started feeling that god is around me defending me from bad things it is a miracle how god works miralces in our lives at different parts of our lives okay for me but some of my dearies cant cope with it haizz my dear nu er if he neglect u and go for the action queen who shouts damn loud and freaking give flirts to guys just heck care her cos ur darling will come back to u no matter what it takes if he really likes u so much I still want to pray for u,those who havent come church and those around me who are suffering god bless you and look over u amen
Date : Sunday, March 29, 2009
Time : 5:49 AM Title : Today early morning go church
then meet my hunny pie okay so how was yesterday competition NC 8 gt 8th Yehhh haha okay then we went to Vera hse damn fun cos shun bin leaded us in worship then we go do hmk while others watch HSM haizz then talk talk ... then go back to church and say a sad goodbye to tabby cos ahe not coming to church nxt one mth sob okay then go to the building opp to church shun bin go play catching with dylan haha cos he gt wet haha it is damn funny then joann go take his bag haha okay then some of us go to causeway then shun bin buy drinks for us okay la then we go up to study i find it a condusive environment to study cos all of a sudden i juz like maths so much crazy me then we go to social centre cos the security guard chase us away haizz then we went to social centre and the guys concentrated on the guitar so much haha before that we were wet and soak in the rain then we go to fairprice to buy things eat haha but i juz dun feel like eating i suddenly feel so emo dun noe why lah shirley and me go do hmk for maths tough times haizz then we talk and do hmk okay lah then we suddenly talk abt something abt the ezlink card then i took it out and show the new one which contain my nerdy pic haizz then shun bin go take a picture of it sob he say he will post to the goldy blog sob sob haizz he is the second person who took my ezlink card yesterday shawn chuah go take mine too okay then we go to the lift and they started chatting and they went to macdonald anyway juz hope darren you will turn into a new leaf and my second kor dun pone any class nor church okay i gtg le praying deeply
Date : Friday, March 27, 2009
Time : 6:24 AM Title : I finally got another kor le
haha. Tommorow competition we will put in our upmost effort to score no matter what we will juz gain experience okay dun give up my first kor, dun get upset with what i say ok i dun mean anything le really. muz buy chocolate.for my number one
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Time : 5:21 AM Title : today was definitely what i wanted
i cried again OMG i dont noe why i juz feel like stabbing myself cos my heart feel so pain i make my friends down i make them feel negelcted i feel like i let down my cg,my hunny pie and family plus friends i freak out everyday even now i think later offline le go to sleep will also cry I feel life juz make me so lonesome on this earth God what have i done? i juz feel that i did not do my QT everyday le and god juz go apart from me i hate to be like this Killing myself seems to brutal i think i damn siao le SO BULLIES i wan TO FREAKING WARNED U that i will let u guys see my emo face everyday no matter what u all wan me to smile how to smile to u guys when u guys give a damn attitude i really hate myself to be in this damn freaking condition i feel like tmr i am going to cry and i will scream really i will scream out loud dead and gone song rocks rocks cos i feel like a dead human
Date : Thursday, March 26, 2009
Time : 5:16 AM Title : I feel too emo le
today a lot of things happen at one go I feel like crying but i have to be the strong one in my team someone that they can rely on I have been working on FAC but suddenly the officers call the FAC members and tell us that we may not have the chance to join OMG I almost cry cos juz now happen too many things like the normal bullying and people throw things at me and i almost just cry Should i ever trust in myself that i can do it well? I dun feel confident but have to act cos ppl need me to support on Pls FAC members be strong WE ARE THE BEST AS LONG WE PUT IN OUR EFFORT I am always with u guys okay STAy STRONG FOR THE BOTH NO #1 cos u guys are my no #1 okay I am going for counselling le or else i get too emotional before i even want to die okay.... so what if I want to die how???? SO must go counselling IF really think of dying then there is no point right to my juniors U all tried ur best officers really accept who u are cos u guys cannot be changed cos u are the best in my eyes the most lousy one is still me now i feel that i am damn negative Damn negative there is no such thing as i love u le......
Date : Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Time : 6:32 AM Title : What do love mean to me? Love should be together.
But love hurts me. I dun think there is a chance to love u cos i dun think u like me one sided relationship hurts peoples. Love is pain Love can be sweet. Love can be tearing apart [But love just sucks for me.] [My heart is healing quietly] [Do not touch the wound.]
Date :
Time : 5:35 AM Title : I feel so sian today
Anyway everyday is the same for me in school Except for Sjab and Church they rocks I mean my friends in class damn hate me They think i own them one still sms tell Mr Lim that i pone class what the freaking hell I have nvr want to scold them really damn freak out by the way they treat me except some of the classmates nice haha okay like now i feel so lethargic i have two swollen foots after quite a hard effort to march perfectly We have finally get to know each other better Okay for the FAC TEAM WE got to catch up okay cos 3 more days to fac WE MUST BE POSTIVE haha damn funny rite today i feel so sad for letting down those around me I seem to let down god too cos i did not do QT everyday le haizz SJAb,the best is us okay juz jiayous haha I juz damn emo signing off with emo and tired feeling Lertong
Date : Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Time : 6:03 AM Title : Today kenna criticize by those so called friends
Tmr no sch hurray haha onli for excecption of Nursing Cadets Wad the hell I really feel so damn stupid to let them insult me I didnt noe they say hi to me mah then they go say me arrogant act cool what damn things is going on in my havolic life so messy and disater happens everyday I feel so confused why did i deserved to be like this? My class should be called 3-devils really smoke and bring hp and bully people who are innocent and weak I will stand out from tommorow onwards really keep being bullied like hell Dun even feel that i am a normal human. If they say i got depression that what they cause me to suffer and they dun even have the rights to said that cos they are not doctors everyday call me crazy really my life is freak out since then FREAK OUT damn dunoe why they hate me so much? Try my best le if nth changes then juz give up on them I damn feel like I created havoc in my life Do i look like a damn freak? My mind is going to burst le Got to go le Signing off with a hate u mood Ler Tong
Date : Monday, March 23, 2009
Time : 5:32 AM Title : My life was really totally havoc
half of a day it can be so sweet and the next part can be a pain or sudden shock There is no point of talking in class when there is like lack of mutual trust in each other In my class they dont even think like a class Haiizz I feel so dead after a long day of footdrill and we are just lack of sharpness and the togetherness The things My baobei nu er tell me is all true cos he doesnt even want to talk to me le Forgetting him is the best way how to forget right? It is damn easy Think whether he even like u and if he dont juz forget him If god fate the both us together we will be together no matter what and no matter how long I juz feel that it is no matter to me le he is way long down in my heart buried I have been listening the song "thinking of you" by Katy Perry Got so siao over the song Kor is out there sad again I suppose He is my best kor
Date : Saturday, March 21, 2009
Time : 4:10 AM Title : I juz feel so negative
there is no true friends I can no longer trust anyone not even myself I got so many problems that I hate my time in earth I juz noe that life is unmeaningful le If really they want to force me I really dun see the point in them being my friends I am so confused if only i can settle it with tears onli tears can settle everything it wouldnt be so pain right now Signing off with a sad face Lertong |
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