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Today dont feel like going sch.

Dun feel like sms him.

He seems to fade and change too much.

I am unable to face the reality.

That's right.

I am too much of a feeling person.

And too sensitive.

Today still have joke abt me.

But I am trying my best to face it.

I am super tired almost everyday sleep late.

In the morning must have the hyper fake smile to face my friends.

I dont noe how to act well.

So almost everyday I at least do some self reflecting.

QT maybe tommorow bah.

I missed all my CG friends.

and him.

But there is going to be sad ending again.

I am super tired he told me lies and lies.

Did I tell him any?

If I nvr appear at church,

Dun say I dun go cos of him

although it is partially cos of him.

I feel so separated and cheated by him.

Should I move him with life?

Or continue to get emo cos of him?

I am like kind of slashing my wrist.

But not so obvious or else must go counselling.

Haiz. Elaine ,don get emo bah.

your mar mie will get the emo feeling too.

But you noe sth, we must learn to hide it like a deep dark secret.

okay.

I found some interesting quotes.

'Laughing isn't always mean happiness.

Sometimes it is a mask to cover the pain

and to hide that you are broken inside

and you want to bleed it out '

'There once was a time when silence meant nothing to me'

'Nobody can hear me screaming in the dark night

It was too good to be true

I knew I must be dreaming'

' I'm alright it only hurts when I breathe'

'It's hard to tell my mind to stop loving someone when my heart still does'

The most favourite of mine today is 'Hate can be a positive emotion.When it forces you to better yourself.'

This quote totally rocks.

haha I think I am mad.

The hot topic in class currently is the recent rumors that tsunami is coming to singapore during july.

And apparently peoples were like OMG I AM TOO YOUNG TO DIE.

I told myself

If this is what GOd plans

why be afraid?

We are created by god.

and the day of judgement may come anytime any where.

SO why be scared and worried?

...

haizz..

TOday was pretty bad.

I got 4 lines of obvious slashing.

and I was pretty angry at myself

cos i dun even noe what the hell am i doing

I am like hating myself at the same point of time causing some ppls suffer bah.

and ppl bully and insult.

I should get back a clean life soon.

although i dun wan to break up,

but if he being with me

and he sins.

what for he be together with me?

What for i be with him when he lies?

say he together with his brother?

omg.

one quote to praise u

Thanks for lying to me so many times and stop your excuses.

I have been slashed in my heart.

Shouldnt have put my trust to you.

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- Breathe.
- Live as independent lady.
- Mature more.
- Love? Exclude me.
- Be a hate about love.

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