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the fool.

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how sweet is this complication?

How many days I have cried for you?

I am meeting difficulties.

Without him.

Without his encouragement.

Haizz.

Last time the mention of his name will make me smile..

But now without him my world is getting too dark.

I often got lost.

I felt like crying today.

But totally cannot cry....

Cos' I promise ppls that I will not cry...

But I find myself waiting for his sms

Then I wait like late night,

No Sms...

Mum force me to forget you.

You know what ?

I am going camp so soon that he dun even know.

I guess hopeless le larhs..

Even I come back to church.

I may not be talking to him le.

I must be cold.

I must be pretending that he hate me.

Really tough to suffer this pain.

even if things turn out his way, it is my fault.

I am really afraid to be talking to anyone of them.

I meant really larhs.

I am even quite scared to sharemy problems with them le.

I am quite sad. cos' it brought them a lot of pain.

and headache.

I mean that if i never step into this church

this problems wouldnt be here.

Esp for 2nd kor,

Sry...

Really sry ppl.

I am going off this week for camp.

May get hurt .

May get angry.

May get sad.

I dun wish to mention anything more

If i never answer any phone calls or sms sry.

cos i may be MiA cos

I need some time to think through things

I cant bear to leave church.

But If i dont they will have more problems.

if i dont leave.

Things will get more complicated.

Mdm Esther is right.

I am very immature. I am lost easily

I am weak

I am very senstitive by ppl opinions of me.

SO I got to stay alone.

I got to cry to release the pain.

Really tough to survive this kind of game.

Getting too lovesick.

Is there any cure to lovesick?

Or forgetting someone that I love too deep.

thinking that this wouldnt change till i am dead.

I am trying to sign up for missions.

to go on missions and to forget everything and treasure things around me.

I think I will go soon after the october things

andd leisure camp for Sj.

I will go to help ppls.

I got to escape from everything.

I need a cure.

this pain isn't like what you think.

I am torn apart.

I am not going to sms him nor talk to him.

that way it is good for both of us.

I will forget you.

but my scars will not disappear.

Never will it disappear.

Rest in Peace my uncle.

Yesterday was your death anniversary.

Sorry to not go and burn those incense paper for you.

Sorry uncle to die for me.

Just cos of me.

I am the blame.

I am the fault of every problems

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- Breathe.
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- Mature more.
- Love? Exclude me.
- Be a hate about love.

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