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I hate myself...

I dun even have the courage to face my mum

She dun trust me.

I dun feel i am human...

I am so emo that I felt like collasping on the floor.

The first thing I woke up

is to ask god.

Am i a human?

Am I a normal soul?

Am I going to get a change in my life?

No one will want to taste my pain.

I am having a family who ignore my presence

and twist my words.

I am not a good girl that you guys think...

I am a girl who scold ppl vulgarites.

I really hate myself for hurting ppls

I am trying to stay strong cos a lot of ppls need me.

but after i am used by them....

I will be used as recycle materials to let them climb back.

Honestly.

I cried 5 times today.

What if life isnt important?

I am going to die soon.

Why?????

I hate the guy who hurt me so deep and cut so deep.

I am not important.

I hate myself most important!

My mum want to see me on the ground die!!!

haha.

What a mum that I have that cared for me.

SO MUCH.

I am too lucky...

I am not smart, hardworking.

I am stupid, useless like what you said.

Tell me go die everyday.

I got so many problems

SJAB!!!!

CHURCH!!!

FRIENDS!!!!

SCHOOL!!!

FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am starting to change already.

I am thinking to stay out of home.

Cos' no matter where I am .

I am still not important.

To the guy,

I am sorry.

I really cant draw myself to you le.

I know you wont like me so that why

I decide to take my mum's insult to forget you.

Although it is pain.

Although I am facing too much nonsence.

I hate life.

I hate myself

I like others more than myself.

Just because my mum scolded me hurtful words

that she meant real.

Real.

I think this is reality.

I am not going to cry.

Or maybe later at night.

Scream....

Tmr for ANCO briefing!!!

Today I spend too much time on SJAB!!!

I begin to hate myself

KC,I really appreciate for making me laugh and angry at you

But please stop it!

I really fed-up with my problems

and here you are making my pain increase!

Haizzz...

I wish the freaking problems will stop for at least one day.

or half a day.

I am so stressed.

I am feeling my head is giddy.

I almost fainted just because I kept pushing myself too much!!

I hate Sjab.

I dunnoe why?

I am complicated

PPLS said i am not important.

I am dumb

I am useless

What for help you guys say so much for the FAC?

Why must i sacrifice so much

You guys got third just because we did it together.

And I spoke so much.

STupiD Me.

I am not important to you guys anymore.

I am a piece of shit!

I am A BASTARD!

I AM NOBODY

I AM EXCEPTION!

I AM TROUBLE

I AM NO ONE

I AM hated....

deeply.

I am HATING MYSeLF

BLAMING MYSELF!!!!!

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My name is Ahh-T0ng. World-hater. Hate me.I don't fcuk care, A twist in my story, when he shoot me three times in my heart.

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- Breathe.
- Live as independent lady.
- Mature more.
- Love? Exclude me.
- Be a hate about love.

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