Yesterday was havoc.

Since she kept lying to dad.

Then never even want to listen to what I want to say!

I felt that She KEPT threatening me with Church!

What for larhs?

I am not going to talk to you anymore.

Never even listen to what I say

So what if I am crushing into pieces.

You wont even save me,

You told me you will continue to hate me

then so be it.

I always have insomnia 

cos' of the person.

But NO ONE will know. 

I try to slash.

I try to take pills.

I try to scold myself.

I try to pretend that he hate me.

But NO MATTER what I still cant seems to forget him

I dun wish to carry on this life.

I hate myself.

I think. Things are getting worse

With me around there.

Death will settle all the unhappiness.

I am counted hopeless.

I am not a good student.

Nor a good leader.

Nor a good daughter.

Nor AM I a good friend.

I am discouraged by.. me and me alone.

I am quite a useless person.

Even my parents don't treat me as their child.

I am so neglected.

I am so disappointed.

What I need here is to find rest in my god.

And stop forcing me to believe in idols.

I am telling her the last time.

NO MATTER what I WILL be A CHRISTIAN!!!

I am not going to be so like you.

You believe in your own beliefs.

I am not going to believe in those.

You just make me a terrible person

Let me cry,

LEt me slash.

Let me fall......

/like Alice in the wonderland.

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