Date : Monday, May 11, 2009
Time : 5:06 AM Title : Yup...
Terrible... My mood now is totally messed up and pain... total havoc Since when should you come to me. I didnt noe anything before I step in the church I am too naive to believe in this kind of things. Help must be needed. Duh... I am really putting false hopes on you. I find myself waiting for your smses. I find myself cry for you. I find myself laughing. I find myself getting too head over heels with you I find myself sad and tear apart when you are upset. I find myself concentrating too much on you. I miss you so much even when I saw you yesterday. I make you so troubled I see you hurt when things got complicated. You told me to stay strong but I guess without You ,I am totally lost and nothing I am really crazy now. I totally changed for the past week. More cheerful cos of you. OMG. I am still not going to let you sad cos of that matter. I promise. PPL who knew what happen to me I am totally sorry. I slashed myself and cried for quite a time. And while calling you guys and crying. Sounded quite stupid right. I am now confused. I meant I forget about Benedick But I am damn upset cos I am not totally overcoming how he scolded me. I am too fragile. Totally I felt like dying. No one would even want to stand beside me.... I am too hurt to say anything. I am sorry to share my problems with you guys. I am totally sorry. I guess I need a lot of time to heal myself during the camp. I guess I am lovesick. What the hell. I am still crying over useless stuff .... I guess I have to be alone again. Crying and reflecting the mistake that i have made. I am too pain to speak anymore. I guess I am all alone again. Painful in my heart, that I rather die. So Hurt that I rather stab myself to death. But tonight is going to different. I would have to be comfort by my own. He would never be besides me le... All alone by her own,Should I leave?..... |
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