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the fool.

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Reflecting the days that have passed.

The days where a lot of things happened.

A lot of the time I really wished to fade away from everything.

But am I letting myself down?

Am I putting god's faith down?

I knew a lot of nonsence had happened to me.

Like today.

I am supposed to go for a outing.

For SJ.

But I chose to stay at home.

Cos' I dun really think that I am a group with them.

That's why I escape from a lot of things.

Even if I go.

Even if God tell me I am doing the wrong thing.

I will still not choose to go there.

Cos' once I go,

I will only be alone.

I am really dissapointed.

With myself.

For giving up so early.

SO fast.

And so rashly.

I really dunnoe what happens.

I start to wait again.

Last night send one sms.

Got no reply.

Duh.

Waited till 2 plus.

Still no rply.

I really missed you.

But he dunnoe.

I onli can pray that God will let me have a wise decison about

This new chance of liking him is kind of crazy.

I dunnoe why.

I juz feel that he is quite different than last time.

Big Differences.

But one of them consists of.

Not replying my sms.

haha.

Really....

But I guess staying up for him is pointless.

But just try to make a possibility of not giving up.

And I always need some time alone.

But it didnt meant that I am always emo.

Cos' I got some problems with peoples.

That's why.

A fake smile is needed at times when you don't really feel like smiling.

But the words that you tell me.

Is always going through my mind.

like a recorder.

I understand there are minimal posibility

for me and him.

Although I still have feelings for him.

But I know that sometimes I must not focus on him too much.

Yeah,,'

I really feel like smiling

but today isnt the day,

Haizz.

Waited for his sms for like 24 hours

Still no rply.

But have two friends with me

and supporting me.

But I have a lot of quotes for them.

Friends help you mature emotionally and spiritually.

Friends teach you about forgiveness.

Friends love you no matter what.

They are true friends that really helped me alot.

In terms of my spiritual ways with god.

Although I sinned to god,

by slashing and hurting his creation.

I am really trying my very best to heal this patch of wounds.

Simple word to him.

I will wait for you till you come and talk to me.

Cos' no one can replace this place execpt you.

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My name is Ahh-T0ng. World-hater. Hate me.I don't fcuk care, A twist in my story, when he shoot me three times in my heart.

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- Breathe.
- Live as independent lady.
- Mature more.
- Love? Exclude me.
- Be a hate about love.

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